Mrs. Merry Mack

I don’t know if it is a pile up of the last few weeks or months or just yesterday, but I am going to admit that I am in a true calgon moment. Almost since the second day of motherhood, and it may have been like day ten, I have had this fantasy of running away a creating a new life for myself like Julia Roberts did in Sleeping with the Enemy. Please understand that I don’t feel like this everyday but every once in a while it creeps up on me and all I can think is. .. Run!

Right now, I would really like to check myself into the relaxing resort down the street, turn out the lights to my room, let the comfy bed and sheets envelope me and disappear for at least 24 hours. Maybe I will order room service, maybe I will read, maybe I will watch what I want to on tv, maybe I will just sit in silence, but I want to get away.

It came to head yesterday on our way back to Austin after a less than successful business trip. My daughter is in the back talking, rather whining, constantly and demanding that I fix something for that I can’t while buckled into the front, my husband needs me to hear him talk through his troubles, he isn’t feel well physically or mentally, my best friend’s grandfather died and I don’t have the emotion strength to call her, I am tried of sharing a car, I am worried about paying bills and realizing school starts in 3 weeks and I think I might be happy about that. While all this is going on, I suddenly just want to jump out of the car and wave as they drive away.

This is as real as it gets. Would I really do it? Hell no! I love all these people to death. I just need a break.

Well… I feel better. How about you?

Now I am off to go to the fanciest tea party that is being prepared for me upstairs.

Life goes on and when you turn the corner, you realize you are blessed.